#tbt Atabey

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This is my rendition or Atabey
Taino Supreme Goddess, Mother of the Supreme Being, Respected Mother, Mother of Waters

Medium: Colored pencils on sketch paper. 2002

Atabey

A vision
A landscape of beautiful caramel & ebony beings climbing
over Earth Mother’s green belly
so as to nestle in her vast arms
wishing to suckle at her breast 
drink her golden milk
dancing & worshiping at her feet
calling out her near forgotten name
¡Atabey!
Wishing to live and
be reborn from her nurturing womb.
Lost children
Looking for what was once home.

-Eli
10/2000

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#tbt Silly Little Girl

Silly little girl original artwork/self portrait.     Media: Colored pencils on sketch paper.        Year: 2000

Mindspace: I drew this after I moved back home when I graduated from my undergrad program. 

2014-10-30 10.57.06

 

Only for me

 

Because of the tears it brings

Year’s of yearning to be free.

Trying to figure out what it means to be me.

Longing for something to call my own.

Something to nurture

Something to love.

So I discovered this Gift

And I am giving it to ME.

 

Eli 2000

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Upgrade: Makeup

I rarely make New Year’s resolutions. But there was something different about 2014.

Maybe it was the fact that I was still dealing with weight/hair/skin issues after having my second child. But a conversation with my cousin Paloma finally lit a fire in me. I promised myself that this year I would make some changes. No more excuses.

So I started subscribing to ipsy so i can try new products every month, joined Ulta‘s reward program and invested in some quality makeup. I started with one of my favorite features: my eyes. I got new glasses, watched YouTube, got creative with my eye makeup and started filling in my eyebrows.

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Instant improvement and I took a whole bunch a few selfies to show off share.  😉

My fave beauty gurus:
♡♡♡Nicole Guerriero
♡♡♡Michelle Phan
♡♡♡Ruby Golani
♡♡Makeup Geek
♡♡SMLxO
♡♡Lauren Curtis

Bottom line: I want to look good I want to feel good I want to turn heads I want confidence I want to be sexy I want to be a bombshell. I’m already all those things. I’m a work in progress.

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PS
I am obsessed with:
Ipsy
Eyeglasses from glasses.com
Eye palettes like
Urban Decay Naked 3
Michelle Phan’s em Life Palettes

#tbt self portrait

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If tears be the ink of the poet
Then sorrow is inspiration.
My soul can speak volumes
With no set limitations. 

If tears be the ink of the poet
Then shouldn’t I not waste them?
But who can reverse waterfalls
Once they’re rumbling toward the edge?

If tears be the ink of the poet
Then my art shall never perish.
Though it hurts, it brings relief
These outpourings that I cherish.

Eli

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Upgrade: Inspiration

Why create this blog?

I guess I started this project for a few reasons. In high school I was an insomniac so I read a lot and wrote poetry. In college I wrote more poetry and participated in open mic nights. For the most part I wrote when I was depressed, angry, hurt or felt passionate about something.

I drew inspiration from sadness and dark places and brought myself through it with pen & paper.  I had a voice and I wanted to be heard when I felt no one was really listening.  [Of course a few people did help me through these times and I’ll be forever grateful:  Arleen, Madeline, Denisse and Angel and later on my NP family & my sorority sisters and my husband, Kelvin].

I still have a desire to be heard but now I draw inspiration from triumph. 

Is it too corny to say that my children inspire me to be a better person?   Probably.  But it’s the truth.♡

But I was inspired to write this blog by two people. My cousin Paloma and my comadre Kenda.
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Paloma always encourages me to try new things and assuring me that I’m not too old to start fresh.

Which of course I’m not. 😉

Paloma in unapologetically herself. She’s quite simply a magnet that pulls you in because she is genuinely a good person.

Despite being a worry wart,  Kenda has continued to challenge herself and succeed.  She’s like the person who’s afraid of heights but puts on the harness, says a prayer and starts climbing and makes it happen.

So why not?

I’m taking a leap of faith. I hope you’re willing to listen because I have a lot to say.

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Press pause

Busy busy me.

I’m used to running on fumes. The last couple weeks have been a blur of countless meetings and endless paperwork.

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Sometimes you have to pause and see the little blessings in the simplest things. Like

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Getting home right before the downpour. 🙂

Or feeling so much love in one moment.

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Project Eli

I’ve taken on a new project.

ME.

My job is to take care of people. I do it in my professional life as a Social Worker and in my personal life as a mom, wife, daughter, and friend. As I’ve taken on more roles in life I have lost some of my identity and I’ve also grown and gained so much.

For the most part I like me. Sometimes I even love me. My experiences in life both good and bad have shaped this person called Elizabeth (or Eli to my friends). Eli is pronounced Elie. No I don’t go by Isabel, Liz, Lizzie or Beth. Thank you very much. 🙂

So I’ll take a little bit of this and a dash of that and document what happens. Hopefully Eli upgraded.

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New beginning

New beginning